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TRUSTING GOD IN THE FACE OF DOUBT

TRUSTING GOD IN THE FACE OF DOUBT

By Carolyn Dale Newell

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

Romans 8:28 NKJV

Has your mind ever told you to trust God and pray for His will? All the while, your heart was afraid of what His will included. Do we fear God’s will because we assume it is different than what we want? That was how I felt. Could we learn to completely trust God and His will? I trust God more now than I did eighteen years ago.

When Timmy, my husband, had leukemia, fear gripped my heart, and I was afraid God would allow him to die. Many people lose their spouses. Good people with good spouses, Not just unbelievers, and not just bad people. Why would I be any different? I clung to Romans 8:28.

Even if Timmy died, it would bring God glory. God would work it out for good. Everything in a Christian’s life is controlled by our sovereign God who loves us. Take a moment and let that soak in. Comforting, isn’t it? God controls our uncontrollable. God would take care of me. That was my pep talk. I tried to believe those difficult truths. I knew they were biblical, but in spite of that, I feared becoming a young widow. Feared losing the love of my life. Feared our time together would be shortened. Feared life alone with no one to care for me. No one to love me. Just plain scared of losing him.

I was still a baby Christian, still unaware of God’s great love and mercy. Do we ever completely fathom God’s love? I was learning to trust Him, but not fully walking in faith.

Apart from a miracle, things seemed hopeless. Like the pit, Joseph’s brothers threw him in (Gen. 37:18-34), we were at the bottom with no way out. Joseph lost his precious coat of many colors. I was losing my husband. Timmy was losing his life. Joseph lacked water to drink, and we lacked a cure. No earthly person could help Joseph. His brothers certainly would not have a change of heart and pull him out. We felt that same hopelessness. God is still the God of miracles. He providentially sent Ishmaelites by and pricked the hearts of Joseph’s brothers to sell him rather than allow him to die. God needed Joseph in Egypt, so He redirected his path.

We were released from our pit when a friend called one night. She watched a news story about an experimental drug labeled STI-571. CML patients were going into remission with this drug, later named Gleevec. We had hope again. God released us from our pit of despair. Hope in God when things are hopeless.

Friend, you may be in that same pit today. Remember Joseph. Remember our story. When man cannot, God can.

Timmy began the drug, and within weeks, he hit his first remission. There are actually three stages of remissions, and within two years there was barely a trace of CML found in his blood. It is 2017, and Timmy is still alive and healthy.

Doubt filled our minds many times through those years, but God remained faithful. Our doubts came and went like the waves of the sea, ebbing to and fro on the shore. Through it all, we learned to trust God.

You may struggle with doubt today. Trust God with all you have, and when doubt arises, ask God to help you trust Him more.

Lord, I believe, help my unbelief. Forgive us for doubting Your will and Your plans. Strengthen our faith. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

DIG DEEPER

Read Mark 9:23-24.

HIKING THE TRAIL

Drawing closer to God increases our faith, along with traversing many storms.

This is from Faith, Freedom & Four Paws: Trusting God in a World of Doubt, my current book in progress.

Copyright 2017 Carolyn Dale Newell.

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IS YOUR FAITH TANK FULL?

IS YOUR FAITH TANK FULL?

By Carolyn Dale Newell

“The officers shall speak further to the people, and say, ‘What man is there who is fearful and fainthearted? Let him go and return to his house, lest the heart of his brethren faint like his heart.’      Deuteronomy 20:8 NKJV

While writing my memoir, I noticed something I never deemed vital before. In December 2011, I came face-to-face with the realization I was going blind. Though visual impairment had been part of my life all along, this was different. The rapid decline made living in a dark world a reality and a fear

Two people played important roles then without knowing it. They each faced their own version of the scary unknown. Each possessed such strong faith, trusting God with whatever the future held.

As I read this chapter over, I thought about how different my life may have been without their momentary presence. Their faith differed distinctly from the faith of most. Coincidences don’t exist. God had a divine appointment for me with both of these folks. I doubt I could have faced my vision loss with the same bold faith if I had not been exposed to it.

Several years later, I discovered there are two types of Christians, the faithful and the doubtful. God impressed upon me that cataract surgery would give me better vision. He gave me Mark 11:24, and He emphasized the word, “believe”.

Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. Mark 11:24 NKJV

Sight is not necessary to distinguish the doubters from the believers. The faith-filled erupted in joy declaring, “I believe with you.” The ones with faith tanks running on empty expressed no joy, just a questionable, “We’ll see.” My response left them speechless, “If you cannot believe with me, don’t pray for me.”

In God’s instructions concerning war for Moses and the Israelites, He told certain folks to go home. Please don’t fight with us because you will hinder us.

The Israelites had been commanded twice, “Do not fear!” God knows His children so well, and He knows we are prone to be afraid. The Israelite officers sent the fearful home. Where there is faith, there is no fear. Where there is fear, there is no faith. They do not co-exist. God sent the fainthearted soldiers home because He knew fear is contagious. It would spread through the army infecting more men.

Doubt and faith go viral too. Spend time around those who believe God heals. Those who believe in miracles. You will keep  a full faith tank.

Lord God,

Fill this faith tank to the brim. Eliminate the fears and doubt that hinder us from complete trust in You. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

DIG DEEPER

Read Deuteronomy 20:1-8.

HIKING THE TRAIL

Who do you spend time with? Are you running on empty or do you have a full tank of faith? Prayer is the means of faith. God already knows you have unbelief, so cry out, “Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief.”

Copyright 2017 Carolyn Dale Newell.